Dr. Evil,
Actually I openly stated in my diatribe that "But in retrospect, I realize that 'not playing the game' was really the biggest game of all."
I perfectly recognize that "not playing the game" is in fact a more passive aggressive act than responding to passive aggressive behaviour. In retrospect I realize that not complaining nor attacking her character must have drove my ex near insane. What my original intention was after breaking up was to put in the effort not to get bitter and play head games - but, this is more of a game than anything else, because she needed that response from me. She needed to know to that I was hurt by her leaving and by her betrayal. Not giving it to her was an insult to her and motivated her to try and extract this reaction from me to assure herself of her own self worth.
So what is a proper response? There can be no proper response. Showing anger at the time of a break up is dangerous - because it can quickly degenerate into a situation where you are literally becoming verbally abusive and it wouldn't take much for it progress into something worse. So we get indoctrinated by all those who are apparently much smarter than you or I on how this kind of behaviour should be suppressed and avoided at all costs - which I did.
But not giving a proper angry/hurt response will just motivate the other to extract that response from you. It's like being in a flushed toilet. You can resist all that you want, but eventually its going to lead to the same place.
And this is what I am referring to - that those in the abuse industry, in all their wisdom and self proclaimed glory - never acknowledge this simple need and behaviour in human beings, nor do they wish to study it for it would decimate all of their previous "findings".
Now, before this relationship that I described in this thread, I had another long term relationship that ended the same way. It ended with me finding out I had been cheated on for a few months already. The difference was that in the previous relationship I gave in to my more animalistic tendencies and got angry - not just angry but furious. When she pushed my buttons I reacted - and my reactions made me look bad and eventually I found myself in a situation where my reactions made me look abusive. And truthfully, if you just took a sliver of those situations, I can see how it would be labelled abusive. I always have, and still do, regret the way I reacted to that situation. I always wished I had behaved with more dignity.
But, we are supposed to learn from our mistakes. That is what I attempted to do the second time I was placed the identical situation - and my second attempt was not successful either, even though I tried to take the moral high road - I eventually failed.
Perhaps a psychologist would tell me that I "needed" to express my anger. The abuse industry and society however, would inundate me with demanding that I behave with the patience of Job.
What is the proper amount of anger? What is the proper way to behave? Is it possible to regulate your anger so that only the "proper" amount escapes from you? What if you recognize in yourself that you do not have the patience of Job?
Dr. Evil, your accusations against me makes me inclined to think that you know the secret. Please explain how one can properly react to a bad situation without being a verbally or mentally abusive male (according to all DV Standards) while at the same time not being passive aggressive?
There is no winning in that situation. You are damned if you do and damned if you don't. My point exactly: Why is the Abuse Industry so reticent to acknowledge this?